Attitude in Life

21 December 2008 @ 07:00 pm

My love is back in town! Got me my favourite pineapple tarts and a bonus bird nest egg tart. I LOVE YOU.

Probably I used to be the first one you would/should see the moment you came back from anywhere. But now, @%^$^$^%&^#%$#^ Hahs. I'm jealous okay! Dont doubt me. Well, I am really happy for you though. :)

I was just thinking about the other time. I havent really got a chance to officially express my remorse to you. Wanted to tell you in person, but I couldnt find the right opportunity. Now that I'm writing this post for you, I might as well let you know.

Being the one that always stick around for me, I couldnt have ask for more. The congregation in my heart has been at odds with me ever since. Dont be stuck in the middle Love.

When I first saw you, I already knew.
There was something inside of you.
Something I thought I would never find.
I look at you, looking at me.
Now I know why they say the best thing are free.
How you changed my world you never know.
I am different now, you helped me grow.
You came into my life sent from above.
When I lost all hope, you showed me love.
Nothing means more to me than what we share.
No one in this world can ever compare.
What you mean to me you will never know.
Deep inside I need to show.

Vogue Me

04 December 2008 @ 01:50 pm

opportunity of a lifetime

Some people might have to wait for a lifetime, some people might not even have a chance. And now, I am given this opportunity.

Should I believe in myself and give it a shot or should I just stay in my comfort zone.

To be truthful, I am really happy that Eric has given me the recognition and feels that I could take the heat.

I want to bring things up to a whole new level. But sometimes enthusiasm isnt enough.

Vogue Me

27 November 2008 @ 03:42 pm

BOO

Andy told me an eerie carpark story that send shivers down my spine. Worse still, I have to send them home. In addition to that, I have no one that stays the same area as me and I.. have to go up the carpark myself.

The rain was very heavy I couldnt see clearly. Bad condition with my night vision. zzz

I have a wildful imagination. After dropping the last dude off, I keep checking my rear mirror. I thought I heard someone scratching against my window behind. I turn up the volume of the sound system and tell myself, it was just the rain.

Oh, the scary thing is.. I heard people talking about my carpark before. Dont know the exact story, but it was enough to know for a night like this. I have to go up all the way to 5A which was like $@%$%^&&*#$.

Inside the lot, I sat on the seat for awhile. Getting ready to make a dash. Hahs.

I think I wont be and will not be staying out so late if ever I am going home myself.

Current Location: Home

Current Mood:

tired

Current Music: Labels or Love

Vogue Me

19 November 2008 @ 11:26 pm

N-G

I was angry yet frustrated at the same time. Then mum and dad woke up to talk to me about it. They told me that there are alot of people in this world. Not everybody is as good as they seem to be. I could easily hurl vulgarities at this empty space if I want to. It was till daddy told me, sometimes it isn't too good to explain too much. Life still has to move on. He mentioned that there is always a first step to do everything. Once I take the first step, everything will starts to fall into place.

Vogue Me

12 November 2008 @ 10:18 pm

Funny me

When I receive your text, I find it hilarious. I wanted to throw the question back to you. He is so insignificant to me that I dont see the point in mentioning. We will just do our own usual routine. But since he has already highlighted it to you, I dont see the point in me acting nonchalent anymore.

Firstly, both of us come from different world.
Secondly, his belief is different from mine.
Thirdly, I cannot stand his laziness.
Fourthly, sad to say that he is not worthy of my respect.

If this four reasons is not enough, I will fill you in with more. I just find it funny you even consider sending me that text.

Well, what if I told you all these are not important to me at all. I tried hard to make it perfect. But all you could see is only that. Came by once in a while. How much could you know. Dont expect too much from me. Really.

Vogue Me

05 November 2008 @ 03:13 pm

I am a good / wicked person

I was at this road junction when this indian lady keeps yaking on the phone. Naturally I ignored her presence and cross the road. Oh well, the road junction have very weird pattern of their traffic lights. People who knows will try to avoid that junction. The waiting time is ... The main point is that she keeps on yaking on her phone that she did not look out for the on-coming car. We were crossing half-way and I saw this car driving at high speed. Apparently, she just stepped out. I watched her to see if she was going to notice that car. And she really didn't. What a nerd. I pulled her back and she gave me that megawatt smile. zz

Vogue Me

28 October 2008 @ 01:17 pm

run with you

Went running yest with S. Something that I havent done in quite awhile. The amount of sweat, the heat that I was emitting was a feeling I havent felt in quite some time. Well, it was as always de-stressing. :)

I re-told the incident and my hands got cold. So much that I was a little shakey. I cant sleep at night for your images haunt me. I have got so much comments. So much so that I cant think straight anymore.

What they did is what I cant do. So I will pick a superman for now and now and now.

Vogue Me

26 October 2008 @ 02:15 pm

you are worth my money.

I wan to hear my heart pumping.
I wan to use all that strength.
I wan to hyperventilate.

Alcohol didnt work on me.
I dont have coke at home anymore.

Vogue Me

24 October 2008 @ 10:54 am

Hungry for Everything

I am so hungry right now that I text-texted S if we are even going for dinner tonight. Damn!

E said:
Didn't know so many things happen to you lately. I wouldn't be of much help but doesn't mean I'm not there.

I still have to laugh it off though. Hahs.

I M STILL VERY HUNGRY AFTER I TYPED THIS.

Vogue Me

17 October 2008 @ 04:07 pm

ex-in

My external world and internal world are at odds, right now.
Being alone may bring me comfort right now, and that's all that matters.

Vogue Me

10 October 2008 @ 12:04 pm

Who's there.

First you came into my LJ to ask me if I am even surprise you are here. Then, it was my friendster. Oh well, you changed the theme to Audi? Thanks. But who's there?

I am a freak to be eating at 0000hrs.

I didn't like what I saw in the reflections.

Now, most of the UUUUUUUUUS are starting school in August 09. And I am tired of working, I am getting frustrated. So what do I do?

3 Vogues | Vogue Me

08 October 2008 @ 12:07 pm

Motion'less

I had been lazy recently. Be it my private life or professional life. Someone, something, somewhere drained the energy away from me.

I sit infront of the computer looking at the screen. I sit infront of the television not knowing how the drama goes. I walked the estate not knowing what to improve. What am I?

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Everybody is being nice to me. Treating me to lunch, ice-creams, snacks. Didn't they realised the food is killing me?

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I forgot who you are and how to be me.

Vogue Me

26 September 2008 @ 12:00 am

asshole

If you don't already know, I am starting to lose patience with myself.

Vogue Me

10 August 2008 @ 07:56 pm

LOVES

Hello people!

It has been awhile. Well, recently I am feeling lethargic yet fulfilling! People noticed the effort I have put in and appreciate me.

Just being there makes my heart happy.

I heart Monday, Wednesday and Friday most. Time on these days just fly by.

I like how Frederick keep his words and his funny theories.

I am beginning to see my way.

Don't ever let me be lost again.

Vogue Me

23 July 2008 @ 09:47 pm

fatique

sometimes I hate July.
Now I hate talking to you.

3 Vogues | Vogue Me

25 June 2008 @ 05:23 pm

the virus

I woke up on time today. I tried to be perfect. But my health fail me. As usual, vision was unclear, motions slowing down. I went to have a piece of papaya. I gobble it down to save time. Then I make my move. When I started to walk, I've already started to feel cold. I thought I was just tired. When I open the door, cold air rushed out and I can feel my sweat flowing down my spine. My hot skin and the cold air just couldnt mix. I still thought I was tired. So I went to the toilet to remove my contact lenses. But.. I am sweating like a pig inside a 20 degree celcius room. I took my jacket and I went out. I sat on the sofa. I moved to the multi-purpose hall which has no air-con. I am still icy cold when I have my jacket on. But on the other hand, I am sweating profusively. I can literally feel the sweat flowing down my chin. I called Daddy for help. He rushed down in the shortest possible time. (Before he reached I got the papaya out of my system.) Inside the car, my hands dropped another degree again. So I told him. "Can you hold my hand cause they are very cold". So he held my hands while driving all the way back. I threw all my things upon reachin home, get changed and got to my bed. Nothing has change, daddy brews the herbal tea and gave them to me before heading off to work again.

I love you Dad.

3 Vogues | Vogue Me

23 June 2008 @ 12:25 am

The time

I told myself for the very one last time.
I told everyone thats close to me.
That no info would serve me better.

By the way, Sentosa have very beautiful lights at night. I enjoy the times I spent with my classmates there. They are the reasons why I am still sane. Catching up with everybody in the shortest time is just as crazy. Everyone has change after secondary school. But I can surely say its all for the better. Some are serving the country. Some are working. Some are studying. I am happy.

I miss wakeboarding. But the tight time schedule did not allow me to have anytime to do it. The sun, the breeze and the sea. DAMN.

I found a game for us to play and be silly the next time the group of us hang out again. :)

The people at the condo are so nice. Always treating me to lunch or giving me biscuits. Sometimes I feel so shy I dont know what to do. The gym instructor that came by is so hawt.

I tore two pairs of shoes from all the walking. I need new shoes. But I really have very little time to do shopping.

I want to be happy at the end of this month. :)

Vogue Me

22 June 2008 @ 03:46 pm

I'm doin it for you D-boy

Fact #1
I like to look at lights. Beautiful lights.
Fact #2
I enjoying being at the top of the hills because of Fact #1.
Fact #3
I hate people who hang up the phone without saying goodbye.
Fact #4
I only listen to English songs.
Fact #5
I tend to notice people with a nice set of teeth MORE. Actually A LOT MORE.
Fact #6
I always cannot reach a minor decisions. But I am firm with MAJOR decisions.
Fact #7
I like people who smells nice.
Fact #8
I got a single and double eyelid
Fact #9
Smart people attract me.
Fact #10
Love is too heavy for me. I seldom love people. If I love you, I really do.
Fact #11
I have an in-built lie detector in me. So dont lie to me.
Fact #12
I like to act strong.
Fact #13
I like this number.
Fact #14
I like perfumes.
Fact #15
I enjoy being with my friends.
Fact #16
I dislike people with no table manners.
Fact #17
I secretly enjoy being alone.
Fact #18
I need coffee every morning. NO SUGAR CAFE NOVA COFFEE.:)
Fact #19
I look away everytime I am shy.
Fact #20
I seldom hit the clubs. (For those who thought Im there every 135)

Vogue Me

08 June 2008 @ 02:45 pm

Good Girl Gone Bad

Standing at a mountain height, I look down at our busy city lights. I always knew that nothing could break me or lead me astray. Who would have guess I let my mind drift so far away. There is a reason why people change. Spending years on a love train, I finally decided to get down. As I left the place, I instantly knew something was about to change. It felt as though my past wasnt too caught up on me afterall. I couldnt even remember the time when I wanted to hold you anymore. Your smell, your smile. Even the contour of your face. I could only remember them vividly. All we had was just one summer. When the leaves starts falling and winter came, I started to lose my mind. I may have hurt you. But I did not desert you.

----- BREAK IT OFF -----

Easy for a good girl to gone bad
And once we've gone
There's a belief we gone forever
Dont be the reason
Cause once a good girl gone bad
we die forever

1 Vogue | Vogue Me

06 June 2008 @ 01:42 pm

Insomnia

I am mentally exhausted. I cant seem to get to sleep recently. Lying in bed till dawn and waking up mid morning is tiring. Too much bubble tea I guess.

PS: Its been four years and everything should end tonight. ~~Loves~~

Tags: feelings

Current Mood:

tired

Current Music: unfaithful

Vogue Me

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